i thought i was safe and sound
in my nest of comfort
until you ruffled my feathers
and messed up my head
emotions that make you throw up change you
i will never forget that morning
i woke up dry heaving
because i was so nervous
that morning i thought i had discovered my true self
i was a failure
but you showed me different
you thought i would let you down
but i didnt
i was there for you after the end
im not a failure
i am determined
i am loyal
i am loving
and i am beautiful
just like they told me
thank you for failing me
because through your failure
you showed me that i was not the same
thank you for breaking me
because i never knew before then
that i could be unbroken
thank you for lying to me
for betraying me
because i didnt know i could be decieved
and now i know to trust my instincts
thank you for not leaving
i needed to know that i could end things
but most of all
thank you for showing me
that i was nothing like you
now i know
what to never let myself become
i hope you start to drown in your misery
maybe then youll finally wake up
its a shame you never saw me
for who i really was
i almost feel bad for you
but all you gave me was apathy
and thats the only thing i have to give back to you

k.g.

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