i feel like a strong person. i can put on my game face, suck it up, and succeed. but so much of the time i just want to curl up in a ball in the corner of a room and cry my eyes out. ever since my ex and i broke up, theres this emptiness in my chest. it was there before i even knew him, but it had always been there and i knew nothing different. romantic relationships are different. you feel so much closer to a significant other than you do to people you have known for your entire life. is had less to do with the persons involved than it does with the dynamics of the relationship. a relationship like that touches your soul in a way no other relationship seems to; in a way that makes you feel not so very much alone. alone is a terrible thing to me. its like poison. i finally realized that the emptiness was there. and then i realized why. there are only two relationships that can make you feel completely unalone: a relationship with God, and a romantic relationship. not to say that once one or both of these relationships are achieved you will never feel alone again. thats impossible. but they provide moments of closeness that make you feel like youve finally come home. that feeling is the absolute most best thing i have stumbled upon in this life thus far. i miss it.

k.g.

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