tear out the ribbons wrapped around my soul;
make me whole.
im tired of being broken down,
tired, and worn out.
when do i get this new body
that is stronger than the first?
i cant hear you,
i cant see you,
i cant feel you.
i miss you.
when i cant feel you here
i feel like the real me died
and i am nothing but my shell of charaters.
they play me till i drop
trying to express the sorrow in my heart.
i need you in a desperate way.
like a lily needs rain,
but drowns in its drops.
and this is us:
you give me all i need,
and i try to give back what i can,
but i have next to nothing.
and only until i feel abandoned do i love you...
the shame of it weight upon me when i am humbled.
lord, teach my heart to be content
and love you when im told im unloved.
teach my ears not to believe the lies
i used to hold in my heart;
that i still cling to when the lights go out
and i am alone again.
be the stars to my night
so i can gaze upon your beauty when silence falls.
break me of my anxieties
so that i can shake hands with fear
and tremble in your presence instead.
let love light up my life
and tear the veils away from my eyes.
still i will lift my hands when i cant see
and let the rain role down my arms
and mingle with the tears on my face,
because you are faithful in the dark times.

k.g.

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