i dont want to fall in love again

it hurt so much the time before

i dont want to fall in love again

i dont want to hurt even more

i dont want to find myself again

in a crumpled heap on the floor

i dont want to find myself again

being unwound at my core

i dont want to be afraid again

to be terrified to be alone

i dont want to be afraid again

i want to sleep

take me to a place i can call home

and break down these walls

so many hands have built for me

i never wanted this

and now im afraid to trust

im afraid to let go 

afraid to fall in love

im becoming a ghost

im not who i was before

im trying desparately to be

all that i wanted to remain

all that was stripped away

if you are not afraid to love these bare bones

all that i have left to give

if you can endure darker nights

then you can have this skeleton 

somewhere underneath my rib cage is my heart

its messed up and fragile

but if you can find it

then you can have it

im not much

just a few crushed bones and a bleeding heart

but if you can find me

if you can love me

you can have me

k.g.

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